When I'm not willing to lose to win
In case you haven't heard, Fantasia has a new song called Lose To Win. The song is a very personal testimony to a situation I can relate to. And it reflects a theme in my life that I've been trying (albeit not as hard as I could) to rid myself of. I talk a lot about trusting the process and going with the flow, but I notice in my day-to-day life, I haven't made these things part of my experience. I know them in theory. I occasionally practice them. I've grown to be able to be very honest with myself about most things I know about me. I know my shortcomings and I know my good qualities. One of my shortcomings is the inability to be willing to lose to win sometimes when it matters most. I've been told that love and fear can not occupy the same space. If that is true, I admit that I operate a lot of times from a place of fear. I'm concerned with not being good enough. And while I understand that my experience is normal for a lot of people, that doesn't dec