The Evolution of Perspective

You don't even up the score or win by acting like what you hate.

 Today's my Women's Rap Session and I'm feeling kind of strange and different. The feeling is uneasiness. I feel like I'm preparing myself to be disappointed tonight. I've been doing this for about two years now and still have not been able to convince myself that I should direct my happiness to the success of the events instead of looking at numbers of attendees. I do that with the radio show too. Part of the issue I have is that I know in my soul that I'm doing what I'm doing to help people. I'm bringing people together for the purpose of increase. I don't plan and never have planned to take away from anyone who comes to anything I do. My hope is that they leave with a better understanding of who they are, who other people are, and a bigger circle of friends and/or associates. Knowing people, in my opinion, is a good thing. I think the thing that I tend to conveniently forget is that people are not always as aggressive about expanding, growing, l

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I noticed myself getting into a little funk last night. I almost turned the tables on my friend and turned our outing into a fiasco. I caught myself and got quiet. I'm glad I did. I've been pretty quiet since then. My birthday has a way of inspiring me to look at myself and look at who I was and who I'm becoming. I've been wondering lately about why I'm not as connected to the level of happiness that's in front of me. I feel like I'm not as close to the people I usually surround myself with. I also know that time spent alone is never really a bad thing. It gives you time to think. I'm getting to the point where I can appreciate quiet. It's still pretty disturbing to me at times but I'm getting there. I remember what I learned from my sister about balance. I shouldn't be dependent on people to entertain me....especially if I'm running away from myself or something I need to deal with. WHO I WAS: I realize that she's gone and that

The very first time I went natural by choice was around 1994 (ish). I decided that I would grow my relaxer out and give natural hair a try. I don't remember having a plan or much knowledge about natural hair back then. Knowing what I know NOW, I didn't have a clue. The second time I cut all the relaxer out of my hair (or big chopped), I used Jam (O_O) and Queen Helene's pink gel to coil and bantu knot my hair and wore it like that until I committed to locing my hair. I wore locs for six years before I big chopped (or BC) again. Then I committed myself to growing a fro. I usually get a lot of compliments on my natural hair. I think I always have. Relaxed-haired sisters say to me that they wish that they could/would grow their hair out and get rid of the perm. They also note that they are hesitant because they either don't know what to do with their hair or they don't want to go through the awkward phases of growing their hair out. I never really transitioned so I

I normally don't get into political debates, discussions, or confrontations with people. It rarely makes sense to me to do so. People feel the way they do about politics and I really couldn't care less than I already do. DO YOU BOO BOO! I see the loyalty people have to their parties, individual politicians, and political ideologies and then I don't see it. Now if anyone knows me...or has been following this blog regularly, you know that I have this "thing" against hypocrisy. When I see it, my skin starts to crawl and I want to fight it down to the grown. (The hypocrisy...not the source of it!) So I'm scrolling through Facebook today and I see a post about some political person calling President Obama a "tarbaby". I didn't even give the actual post link a blink. I knew I wasn't gonna read it. I don't care that people call our president names. Remember sticks and stones? What blew me is the person who posted the story link was crying abou

So, I've been thinking about finding the time to write a blog...WAIT WHAT? How does that work? I've been thinking about finding the time to write a blog because I've been busy doing a whole lot of thinking and a lot more of what seems like nothing. I've moved to the place where I can say that I'm DBA Ellen Gee and building The Evolution of Perspective. I've been thinking about tactics and marketing strategies and business classes and demographics and all that jazz. And I thought about it too hard and too long and got frustrated and stopped thinking about it as much. I need help and I know it. And in the process of me needing and me knowing, I've been thinking about how I need to get focused and specifically what that takes. The one thing that always comes to mind is a schedule. AN ADHERED TO SCHEDULE. If I am to build my brand and reach the reachable masses, I definitely need to adhere to a schedule. There's a part of me that feels like I won't be su